Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Things that I want


I want


the sun to shine and summer to be here


my own little family


to be in love with my husband forever


to be a really, really good cook


my sisters to know that I love them


to have a job that really means something to me instead of just a paycheck


my brother to be happy and confident on his mission


to be proud of the things I do to make my home more attractive


my parents to enjoy their "empty nest" that isn't empty most of the time


to feel the strength of the gospel in my life every single day


to live a long, long time so I can get


all of the things


I want

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Insomnia

Time 3:52 am.

Third night where I have had trouble sleeping. In a row.

Beverage: ice water (we are out of milk)

Food: saltine crackers (they were on the counter and I am too lazy to find something else)

Activity: read a couple of blogs until I am tired enough to go back to bed


I was yawning at work twelve hours ago. Because I wanted to sleep so bad. And when ten pm hit, I was crawling into bed, exhausted. So why is it that I am up at this time?

Do you ever have those days when your brain won't shut off, when everything you think about wizzes around and then zips to another thought and then another? That is my brain tonight. And last night. And the night before. Too much to think about, too much info to process for the day.

I am not normally an insomniac. I am a sleeper.

As in, I. Like. Sleeping. A. Lot.

I could take a nap in the middle of the day and then go to bed at ten just like usual.

Oh yeah. Serio.

And I can usually convince my body it is time for bed. No problem there. But convincing my brain is another matter. Sometimes I just have too much in it. Too much rolling around there to just quietly shut it down.

Notebook by the bed? Check.
Writing down the things being thought about? Check.
Relaxing thoughts and calming topics? Double Check.
Warm milk? Gag, no. But I am eating crackers and water, so that should count.

Ok, going to try to go back to bed. You know I will be up at my regular time anyway. I always am. Insomnia or not.

Peace out.
Time: 4:08 am




Insomniac websites. Or really just what I hadn't gotten around to reading already today (yesterday).

Nie
Cjane
Pioneer Woman

Night

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Sewing projects

This weekend, while Scotland was gone on a six hour motorcycle ride (SIX HOURS!) I attempted to busy myself by starting several projects that I won't finish anytime soon. Cause that is how I roll...

1. Half made denim apron. (Front is done, but still need to do the straps for the waist and neck and finish the sides)
2. Half made long denim skirt. (It is put together but I still need to hem the bottom and fix one slightly crooked side seam)
3. Half done altered pair of capris (love these capris but I still need to work on the waistband part and the zipper)

and these items are only to add to my other unfinished projects, the purple cotton quilt, the crochet afghan, and the denim quilt....

Please send professional seamstresses, and ice cream.

Thank you.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

You know it's spring when...


...the boys are outside working on their vehicles...

.......you mow the lawn for the first time in months.......

........there are garage sales everywhere you turn......

.............every door and window in your house is open...........

.....you turn on the heat in the morning and the AC in the afternoon.....


Thursday, April 15, 2010

Popcorn and my mom

Last night

Scotland was away on elders quorum visits. I was watching a movie and eating popcorn. And I should probably mention that I have done this exact same thing every night this week... Scotland came home and being that he doesn't have a key to the front door, he rang the doorbell and I answered it.


Scotland: Smells like popcorn in here!

Me: That is just a figment of your imagination...

Scotland: Ok...(long pause).....Tina!

After which screeching and chasing occurred and there may have been some tickling and poking as well. I pretended to be mad. He laughed at me.


After all, I have always said my mothers daily popcorn obsession was crazy. And normally I don't like popcorn, which is why Scotland was so bewildered at my recent late night food choice. He even called my younger brother after all the hoopla was over to tell him how funny it was. And I smiled as I sat there and listened to him tell it, and thought about how much my relationship with my mom has changed.

I am 100% honest when I say that my mom is my best friend. Not that we don't both have our crazy moments, and probably our "drive each other crazy" moments as well, but we finally understand each other and generally enjoy each other's company. And that is something I have been praying for my entire life. I call her when I am happy to tell her what is going on, and I call her when I am having a hard time. She talks me through recipes, quilting problems and the occasional backyard prowler. She thinks back to when she was first married to tell me about her experiences. She gives me advice and she makes me laugh.

The moral of this (short) story?

I love my mom, prayers are answered, and the church is true!

And perhaps I will have popcorn again tonight and everything will be right in the world...

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Saturday baking

My Saturday was rather slow to start off with, but as the day wore on, I got motivated to do some long overdue baking.
In other words, I was struck with a sudden case of temporary insanity.


I love to bake. I do. The only things I don’t love about baking would be the amount of dishes it creates and the amount of time that it takes me. So when I realized I had the entire afternoon with nothing planned, I finagled my way into getting Scotland to promise to help with the dishes, and I set about my task. I decided to make two different recipes, one that Scotland was asking for, and one that my stomach was asking for.



Double chocolate chip cookies and cinnamon rolls.


The double chocolate chip cookies came about from a conversation with Scotland from a few days ago. He told me that his co-worker’s wife had brought in that type of cookies to his workplace. I immediately boasted that I could make those cookies too (hello, your insecurity is calling) and he said, "ok, that would be great!".



(Now that I think about it, he was probably hoping I would have that reaction… I guess after nine months of marriage, he has figured out how to push the Pride button)

I was all set to make them that night (uh, Thursday???), but realized we didn’t have any eggs. As we were discussing going to the store, he let slip the fact that the cookies were actually store-bought not homemade. And then my motivation went right out the window. So after grocery shopping on Friday night, when we finally had a dozen eggs, Scotland asked for them again. And it wasn't until I had exhausted every other possible thing on my list of things to do (underwater basket weaving, pluck my eyebrows, paint my toes, sleep, etc) that I finally gave in.


The double chocolate chip cookies were rather unremarkable in my opinion. I got the recipe out of one of my many cookbooks, and it was fairly simple. The only thing I was a little hesitant about was the almond extract it called for. Now don’t get me wrong. I LOVE almond extract. Anyone will tell you that. My dad could tell you that I refused to frost a cake in March because they didn't have any almond extract at their house. But he is much too nice to say something like that about me. He would just tell you that I was asking for some so he went to the store and got some for me. But I digress...Oh yes, the cookies. So the recipe I was using called for a whole teaspoon, which seemed a bit excessive, even to me. Scotland commented on the strength of the flavor when he tested the batter for me and asked if some of it would cook out. So it was a bit strong, but they turned out ok, and I kind of think that the almond flavoring brings out the chocolate flavor. A picture for you.



Very pretty, right? And just the right amount of soft and chewy with crusty crispy. Lovely.


The real experiment for the day was the cinnamon rolls. I used the parker house roll recipe from my aunt Wilma, who makes pretty much the best rolls and scones anyone could ever ask for. But just because I was using the same recipe does not mean they turned out like Wilma’s do. I swear that woman has some sort of magic touch, because my rolls were not even on the same field as hers.


Her recipe, if you please.







She is a formidable woman, are you seeing that this is from an actual typewriter??? I mean, she just blows me out of the water with her dedication... And please make a note that I can barely handle this recipe. Do you see all the little notes and pictures I put on it so I could survive the process??? I actually had to look up how to "scald" milk! Betty Crocker I am not.




Anyway, they turned out ok, even if my attempt at parker house rolls was less than stellar. And today I am mixing up some frosting to go on top, because what is a cinnamon roll without frosting?? And one of these times, I will make these again, but will use tang as the filling, because I am out of control like that…orange rolls have a hold of my very soul…and for some reason tang sounds so freaking good…






Yummm, look at all that brown sugar buttery cinnamony goodness....







Aren't they cute? Little swirly things! I had to use my very favorite blue knife for these babies, because the sharper your knife is, the better it cuts through the dough without smashing it.
















And this last picture is just because I thought it was ironic that I happened to grab my Saturday Bake towel to spread over them while they were rising.




Too bad I don't look like her while I am baking... And the finished result??????





TA-DA!





Not too shabby if I do say so myself!




And the finished parker house rolls????







WHAH WHAH WHAAAAA!!!!



Can we say UUUUGGGGLLLYYY! But they didn't taste horrible so I guess it is a small step in the right direction. I thought I had them ok, but I must not have pinched them well enough. They look like lips. Or butts. Or something ugly.







Accomplishments for the day:


Two dozen chocolate batter chocolate chip cookies.


Four dozen cinnamon rolls with frosting.


And nine puny little parker house rolls that look really crazy.


And yes, it took me six hours. Baking day finished.


I am probably good for another two months. My sanity has returned.

Sorry...

It has been a significant amount of time since I last posted. I apologize for the delay.

I have had a rough bout these past weeks, and on more than one occasion I had decided to give up on this blog. It was a slow and arduous process to reverse that decision, but one that I am grateful that I finally made. You see, my reasons for starting a blog in the first place had morphed into something that I was no longer comfortable with. When I first started this blog, it was to be a place where I could write my thoughts without having to worry about what anyone else thought. An online diary, if you will. And then as things progressed, I became proud of the things I had written, so I shared the address with a few select people. I wanted to be able to show my family and my three best friends what I was doing. It was a way to keep up on each others lives and keep those important people involved in my life. Well, obviously things have progressed as they are prone to do, and at this point I have no idea who all reads my little blog. And my hopes of someday having a famous blog started to overshadow my original intent. It became less about a place to put my introspections and daily happenings of life, and more about what would bring people in to see my posts. And that is not what it was supposed to be. So please forgive me. I lost sight of my purpose momentarily. But I have regained it now. And what you will see again is less about writing something others will be interested in, and more about documenting my life and my thoughts. For better or worse.

Thank you.
Kristi